Red-head who?

Have you ever experience being ignored?

outcast?

Seen right through?

Backs turned on you?

Ever experience this feeling?

I did. A few weeks ago, and it really hurt.

3 people out of maybe 20 or more said hi to me .

3.

And these are people that I knew.

I finally realized that I didn't need to hang on to the past. I am one that if you become even an acquaintance, I want you to feel like a friend. If you cross my mind, I want you to know, if there is a get together goin on, I want to invite you. I never like to close channels with people. I always want people to remember me as someone who is approachable, kind, and genuine. I want to be able to see people at the store and genuinely say, "Hey ______! How are you {hug} I haven't seen you in so long!" And carry on a conversation at WalMart.

When I was in high school I was in student government. It was expected of us to be kind and befriend everyone. (For me it was really more of an excuse to talk to everyone. What can I say? I love it!) I never deleted people off of my Facebook or Myspace (when Myspace was the "cool" thing) because I never wanted people to think I was snobby, or better than them, or had forgotten about them, etc. So there they stayed. Able to look at pictures, posts of my life whenever they chose.

I have been graduated for 3 years now.

I finally decided that high school is far enough in the past that I don't need to carry that weight of having to be a "friend" because of the position I once occupied.

I finally decided that if I can't even be waved at from across the cluster of people, or when I catch them looking at me and when I turn to look in that direction, they hurry and turn their head like they are oblivious to my existence -- what makes me think they would notice me at a place like WalMart?

Why would I want them to be able to know what is going on in my life?

I finally decided that it is ok to let go of some people that are "friend collectors."

It is about time I did some "house cleaning" and "de-cluttering" in my life.

And I will have you know, I have cleaned up quite a bit. :)