a thought over christmas

one sunday morning, i lay in my mom's bed. she has already left to go to her church meetings so i am left in the house. the stillness of my mom's home, me snuggled in the sheets and blankets, the background noise of the furnace, vague sounds of the cars passing on the street, and my thoughts.

always around this time of year i think of keltson. that time of year was when we met and our story was written. 

for the past couple years i had always thought about him "on his mission." it was natural for me not to hear from him or see him because of that reason. this particular morning, something dawned on me.

right now, this christmas of 2010 he would be home. 
we might be dating, we might not. 
we might be spending christmas with each others families, or maybe spending them alone with our families. 
we might be picking up right where we left off, or we might not. 

it was the most surreal thought. 
that he could be home.
right now.

i had never thought about it. i wish it were true. i really miss him.